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TIMES WHEN I WONDER

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Times when I wonder,
Times when I question,
 I wonder and I question
And I doubt
Is there really a God?

And I hear somewhere
Inside the caverns of my soul
Laughter, much laughter.

And then it comes to me
What my doubt is really.
It’s a disguise for
Do you really love me?

You are such a smart God.
Yes?
So what’s with me
That I question and I doubt? More laughter
Is all I hear.
Are you laughing at me?
“Hardly,” comes the answer.
“I just love you,” comes the answer.
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WHEN WE LOVE

Times when love moves us
To stretch far beyond our reach.
I watch us
Calculating the cost,
Weighing the risk,
Rolling the dice.
Might we lose this time?

Times when love beckons us
To the tightrope
Stretching ‘cross
‘Cross an uncharted abyss.
Holding our balance gracefully,
We sway back and forth
With complete certainty
What awaits us on the other side,
Complete uncertainty
What waits beneath
Should we fall.

It may seem like a gamble,
But you taught me long ago
It’s what we do
When we love someone.

And
I hold your heart dearly
Carefully
Gently
As I whisper the words,
"Thank You."

STAYING HOME WITH YOU, LORD

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Our bed, Lord,
So safe,
So warm.
Why me, Lord?

Every morning,
You push me out into the world
In search of You
In all your infinite disguises.


And I do, Lord.
I look for you in faces,
In crowds,
In trees, birds, butterflies,
Mountains, clouds.
I look for you, Lord,
I do.



And when I can’t seem to find you,
I listen carefully to your footsteps,
Dancing,
Through the chambers of my heart,
Your soft voice singing,
Echoing
Through the nooks and crannies,
The nooks and crannies of my soul.

Every afternoon,
I gaze at the sun
Dropping behind the horizon
Like a giant teabag,
And I know the time is fast approaching
When I can return to You
At least for awhile.



You ask me how my day was.
I tell you.
I ask you how your day was,
And you tell me.
Then off to dreams of dreams
Tangled in sense and non sense,
Only to wake again
When the sun comes bounding
Bounding over the horizon
Like a giant beach ball
Playfully poking at my eye balls,
Blinding me,

Nudging me,
Sometimes alarming me

To wake up,
Get going,
 Face the day.


And off again, Lord
I…

BEFORE SAYING GOOD BYE ONCE AGAIN

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Sadness, My sadness,
Clinging
To the walls,
The walls of the chambers,
The chambers of my heart.

Like rain drops
Slowly
Ever so slowly slipping,
Slipping to the edge,
Effortlessly falling,
Free falling,
Landing somewhere,
Somewhere
In the depths of my heart.

Echoing
An invitation to the next in line.
One drop after another
My sadness.


Missing You, Yearning for You
To come home.
To be home
With us.
To stay awhile
Before saying good bye
Once again.


I KNEW I WAS JEALOUS

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I knew
I knew I was jealous
Jealous of Mary.

I knew
I knew from Friday afternoon,
The look on her face
When they sealed the tomb.

I knew
I knew she would be there
At sunrise.

I knew
I knew the passion
In her body drove her
To have Him all,
All for herself, to wash Him
To wash Him with her tears,
To dry His lifeless body
With her hair,
To anoint Him head to toe
With her lips,
With her breath,
With her love.

I knew
I knew I was jealous
Jealous of Mary.

I had fallen asleep
Fallen asleep waiting for her.
I never felt,
Never felt the earth shake.
I never saw
Never saw the soldiers abandon
Abandon their watch.

I just knew
I knew I was jealous
Jealous of Mary.

When I awoke,
I saw her
Saw her in the tomb
Slowly unwrapping the shroud,
Ever so slowly
As the linen cloth stuck
Stuck to his wounds.

To my surprise,
She had already spotted me.
She beckoned to me.

To my surprise
She invited me
To also wash Him head to toe
With my tears,
To also anoint Him head to toe
With my lips
With my breath,
With my love.

And Jesus sat up
And said to us,
“I must go …